The past few weeks have been challenging while preparing for the eventual lockdown in our state of Maryland. As of Monday March 23rd, as a collective, we went into a lockdown of non essential personnel to stay home and try to reduce the number of people who would get sick from this Pandemic. My profession of Physical therapy is considered essential, however, I decided to not go to work. This time has been an interesting opportunity for self reflection, as I made the choice not to go out and be in harms way or to be part of the problem of spreading potential germs and possibly being a carrier and getting infected. Initially as things were ramping up, there was a lot of busyness to get the nest ready to stay home for an undefined period of time, and now as we are supposedly in it, we are just doing things to keep ourselves occupied. My first several days have been spent to just find ways to meditate and to be in community with like minded souls in my Sangha ( spiritual community) in my local area, friends who I know in the country and others who I don’t know. there has been a great source of comfort for me in meditating with others and try to stay relaxed.
It feels weird to be on a cycle of no real routine, except to do the things I feel need to get done and realize that is so arbitrary. My cycle revolves around mealtime, meditation and doing some work that feels productive. Even when I had a time in my life that I was not working a regular job, I had routines and I didn’t feel so much like I had to be a ” Human Doing”. I know it took time to get to that place and I will again find that rhythm of not needing to be productive at all times. For now, I am just following my own rhythms and being in a household with my husband and our 4 cats who also have their own schedules. It will be an interesting time to see how I use this opportunity for growth and to maximize my free time to study, work on my blogging, and to just get back to being a Human Being.