So I might be one the craziest people to say that I have been enjoying the stay at home order that we got from our state Governor a week ago. I am enjoying being with my small family, cooking, having time to exercise, doing yoga and meditating. It has been a dream of mine to be able to get back to how I used to work when I was self employed – more on my own schedule and at a pace that felt more natural and comfortable to me.
At the end of 2004 and the start of 2005, I moved from my home of Rockville, Maryland ( a suburb of Washington DC) and moved out to Big Sky, Montana. In my mind, I was moving to get away from the hustle and bustle of city life and start a yoga and fitness business and what I got in reality was a self created break from all things. I did a little work and a little bit of volunteering with an organization that helped individuals of all ages with disabilities learn how to get out and participate in Snow sports. My schedule and life were so much more relaxed as I jumped off of the hamster wheel and was just living. My days were spent doing what I wanted to do in pretty much whatever time frame I chose. I didn’t realize how much I needed to just relax and just be. I had made a small group of friends that I met through various activities I participated in and spent quality time with my dog and cat. It sounds pretty dull as I write this but was some of the most amazing times I can recall. This past week reminds me of that time, in a sense, I am waking when I want, I have no set agenda and I am choosing to make time for some of the activities I love along with preparing nourishing home cooked meals each day. Dan and I have time together and time apart in the house to do our own activities which fit our individual personalities.
Yes there is the stress of the unknown and the worry of finances for the long term, but I am realizing like all things in life, there is balance. I am choosing to accept the things I have no control over and letting my faith in God and the divine plan just work itself out. I realize that whether or not I am happy or not happy, the circumstances will remain the same. So I am choosing to make lemonade from the lemons that we have, or in our house chocolate banana bread from the old bananas we had in the kitchen.